Stranger Within

Moving on gray and grayer
Walled with binding bricks of old love
Rarely has it found joy

Laugh of the few and tears of them all
Low is as high as low as above
Weak, tired, with no soul

One's the drill. Two's the thrill.

Walled with binding bricks of hope
I have found my stranger within
My opposite
And my synthesis

The final is here.

(Jakarta, 2012)

Time is Your Answer

The question of why is off for an apparent reason
Why do we need reason anyway?

The question of when is found within when
Seek.

The question of who is found within whom
For the eyes can see
The heart may deceive
But this mind is solid

The question of where is a matter of scale
What is near is far
What is far is near
Scale.

The question of how can screw the what and vice versa.

So, what was you question again?  

----

For more questions: http://lyricalrelease.tumblr.com

Renounce

Aren't we all numbers?
Yours two and two and eight and eight
I'm two more and two less than it
Aren't we all lovers?
You and your fullness
Me and my brokenness
Aren't we all wanderers?
Two steps forward, one step right
One more ahead, and I stopped on high
Aren't we all strings?
You bow yours, I strum mine
You lift a melody, I chord mine
Aren't we all believers?
You and your hands, hands and nose
Me and me eyes, eyes and thoughts

Yes we are, and no we are not.
Not, in the sense of now.
Not, in regard of tomorrow.

-------------------------------------------------
Written Sunday, at the very corner of my friends's room, on a cozy sofa, William Fitzsimmons on borrowed iPod (kinda hate Chris Brown With You is next in order, and I have to click previous, but then the intro has got in and kinda ruin the mood set by Fitzsimmons), but not at all gloom and doom. No, you got it wrong. Its actually the opposite.

From me. To nobody. I just had this sudden creative juice that I need to spill. But that means something to me though. Haha. Now I got you pondering again. I'm gonna leave it at that. ;p

Smile on, shine on.
Rubs

(berjib) aku

Aku ingin bisa menulis
Kau tahu?
Menulis dan membiarkan jari-jemari ini mengguncang dunia
Duniaku, duniamu, dan dunia-Nya

Aku ingin terus menulis
Kau mengerti?
Dari gelanggang pikiran, dari hati, dari penglihatan
Dari itu dan ini, kamu dan aku, sini dan situ, lama dan baru

Lekas!
Lekas, agar kau tak lekang!

Bergegas!
Waktu tak berharap mengulang!

Aku tak ingin terlambat.
Aku sudah cukup bersahabat.
Dengan iya dan boleh, coba dan mari, siap dan oke
Aku berlebih namun aku berkurang
Aku berlebih namun aku berkurang
Aku di sana namun aku tak pernah sampai
Aku terang namun aku tak bersinar

...

Aku ingin selalu menulis
Apakah kau nikmati?
Aku iya.
Kau?
Ah, kau tak berarti di kala ini.
Selama Dia berjaya. Aku berjaya.

Aku akan menulis.

Aku sudah menulis.

Dan aku tak berhenti.

While in Between

Wish it all began before it start
Hear Him out – dear Heart
Seasons come in time and seasons went
Life’s magical taste is heaven sent

While in between
Let’s not miss the sunshine
Let’s catch a glimpse of life
Let’s roll out the red carpet ride

Let’s curve the walk with smile
Let’s sing a happy lullaby

Let’s breathe the air of bliss
There’s no time like this

Take the rise take the fall and everything in between
Heads up high for the lows
Take the lows braise it up
Take the ups fill the tank
Take the tank and burst it out, loud!

Be happy, be happy, be silly, be as happy as you can be
Be dreamy, beautiful and wonderful, be as lively as you always be

Seasons come, seasons went
Life’s magical taste is heaven sent

---
This will all make perfect sense. It can only get better. =D
Dedicated to you-know-who. (ehm, not that imaginary guy created by JK Rowling). Let’s just say dedicated to a friend who I've met, but I don't know yet. Haha.

~ ivd.

when i lay down and my eyes refuse to shut
that's when your images rushing out
seemingly friendly, they caught me off guard
tick tock tick tock tickly tick ... tock
it tickles my heart
one scene to another i grow on tears
where did we start, how did we end up here?
one scene to the last i cry them tears

one distance to another we grow apart
when i lay down and my heart refuse to part
that's when i know that was love
love love love
love ?
in my pursuit there were us
in our chapters there were laughs
flowery flowery blissful heart
at the best i know that was my part

when i lay down and finally close my eyes
i wish i can keep this dream aside
that it was not goodbye
that i'd have my fair chance to make you the happiest alive

i lied
i wish i can keep that dream for a long while.

The Green & The Blue

dear you
the history doesn't rings true
i am losing out
and the mystery leaves more doubt

so much been misunderstood
cause the cracks hardly reveal the truth
what you've seen wasn't merely me
once or twice is never enough to peek

dear love, dear blue
dreaming dreams and thoughts overdue
colored in green, i wish i could sing
months without happiness that only you can bring

these pictures are proof
those melodies are proof
those writings are proof
and this heart might still the same love-fool
cause it seeks the same heart-you

 

29

I'm scared knowing that you are always in my mind
I thought I was unbreakable
But I was wrong, you had with you a piece of me

Everytime I shiver, hearing that resounding whisper
'I just wanted to start a new life' you said
I envy your frankness, or is it cowardice?

I'm afraid sensing yesterday at no distance
And the me that believed in love subsisted
Hoping, forward bending, neverending

Everytime I tears at the glimpse of our smile
Dear, would you believe?
No single day passed without a simple wish.

Take a good care, that little piece of me.

------------------------------------------------------
I'm just. I don't know. Its too much to bear. It's still to much to bear. I hope I woke up tomorrow in the other side of the bed or other side of the room with no memories. I guess I can't. Eternal Sunshine was right. You can forget, but how could you erase them?
For the time being, I just want to sleep and hope that I don't dream  that foolish dream again.

I'm Not An Option, You Are

i'm not a heartless toy
you can't just turn my key and have me dancing to your tune
while i'm faithfully ticking
and then return me back to your stack

i'm no collectibles
i'm no numbers

i'm not a numb winding plate
you can't just put the record and have me singing to your desire
while i'm selflessly turning and spinning
and then slip me back among the sleeves

i'm no collectibles
i'm no numbers

i'm the flavor
i'm the taste
i'm not an option
you are!

---------------------------------------------------

dedicated to a friend. who've won and lost. well, i'm glad to say, its not your loss, its their loss. smile up, dude.